The place below the light

Under all that charm,
was a dark place.
A place hidden from the bright blinding light of positivity,
because it wouldn't help a goddamn thing.
It was the place where I kept all the people I lost.
The ones I have hidden so their loss doesn't paralyse me,
doesn't make me dysfunctional- both mind and body,
so their loss is something I know is there,
but I don't let it surface back to my edges.
Nobody can know about that place,
it is sacred, it is my inexplicable weakness and
the one thing that can cut my legs off anytime it wants to. 

Let me fall, don't catch me now

Back and forth like a pendulum,
We kept fighting and making up,
Baby my head is dizzy now,
And I don't think I can stay on this ride much longer.
Forgive me, if you can,
'Coz my heart is shredded to pieces,
and my mind is torn apart,
I don't know how we got here,
But its time now, for me to depart. 

Fix me, soldier

I peeked into my heart,
and shuddered.
It was dark, messed up and broken from various corners.
Then I saw it,
Just a fibre of you- fighting all the others,
crushing the darkness,
cleaning the mess,
and fixing the broken.

No cure

It's not a bad day darling,
Its bad love,
Creeping into our bloodstream,
Which I thought was the vaccine,
But you showed me- it is the fucking disease. 

Kill me once more

I forgot to tell you,
Of the songs I heard at night,
A string of all the beautiful words,
You ever said to me..

Until that song put me on fire,
the same words-
were not my peace anymore,
They were my destruction.